Fighter of A Million Dreams

Dear God,

Thank you for the experiences that was bestowed upon me. I think its enough because I feel so. Thank you God for those 2 wonderful experiences you gave me. But please, I ask for no more than any of this. I don’t like how I feel now because of all that has happened, but I’m glad at least I did one thing right with Azra.

Thank you for those wonderful memories that You gave me God. I can’t appreciate more than enough. But I guess there should be a stop to this. They were wonderful, but I’d like to keep it at a minimal. And that is my limit line. This is the last relationship I want to be in. It doesn’t matter to me what happens next.

Maybe I do have my soul mate somewhere in this world. But please, let her find someone else who is much more worthy than me. I have nothing to give. No fancy car, no money, no good looks, no charm, no nothing i guess. Maybe I sound defiant and ungrateful, but this is my honesty. This is just me.

I want to focus on my other aspects in life. No one can stop me from being  a workahlic. It wont mean much if they did. I’ll find solitude in other things.

I’ll continue to be the counsellor that I still am. I’ll always help others, but never myself. It is a rare sight to see me help my own being. So i’m open for any man or woman who would love to have a chat on their problems. I’m always free for you.

I had really grown feeling, and I had really grown love. But it ended. I’m sorry. Let it be for a reason to make something out of everything. I have learned mine, maybe that’s enough for me. Just let me have my time forever to be a lone ranger. And let my soul mate be with someone better than me.

God, take care of Nadia for me. I can’t fulfill the promise she asked me to keep. I know I’m being selfish, but let me end this one way. Let me give that hope away to someone who will be more deserving for her. I cried last night about this, and I’m crying too now. I’m sorry God, Nadia. I don’t deserve to be with anyone.

I have to go, my tears are running down now. Thank you Allah for eveything.

Much Love, Your Servant, Azlil.Ash.

Your fragile, Folded wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
You don’t have to force your smiles for anyone
Its okay to smile… for yourself

Hearing your sweet voice didn’t always hurt
Its too late to block it from the inside
I want to back our time, but luck and karma are against me.
There are no words, but your eyes can’t hide what you want to say.
I don’t even know anymore…
Try to bury it deep down okay?
We don’t need that sky if we’re free to swim
Even if you won’t talk about yesterday
I’ll still be there to meet you tomorrow

Your fragile, Folded wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
You don’t have to force your smiles for anyone
Its okay to smile… for yourself