Fighter of A Million Dreams

For the 1st time in my life, i made a new history. I woke up late for a final exam. The 1st time ever I woke up late.

I
couldn’t sleep after sahur. The last time i checked the clock was at
6.15. After being able to doze myself off, i was hoping my alarm would
go off, or my mom or my gf would call me. Surprisingly, they didn’t,
and i didn’t hear the the alarm. I ended up waking at 9.35am. 5 minute
after the time where students are allowed to go out. I rushed to the
hall, not even taking a bath, and arrived at 9.42am. When I opened the
door, the 1st words coming out of my mouth was "owh my lord". I
summoned the invigilator at that time, and saw what I could do. After
various discussions, I had to take supp. Now, I’m only hoping if i get
the 1st seating. Its the normal grading one.

i cried, badly. I
wept like mad infront of the lecturers, on the phone, with my mum, my
gf, my dad. It was a horrible time for me. But i guess, this time i
realised a few things.

1, why chase for an exam, if you’re
actually learning for your future? Exams are just as a test to see what
you have learned, and, frankly speaking, the image is being tarnished.
Last minute studies could score anyone an A if they really work it out,
but do they really learn and apply in in their lives? Who knows. I for
one apply what i have learned so far, including English. Math, tak
payah cakap, i love numbers, so it just boils down to me. When Gamma
struck me, I always wondered, whether I’m striving for a degree, or
actually an education on life? Which should it actually be?

2nd,
Allah did this to me. But of course, in a gud way. I did panic when i
woke up, But i told myself to fight thru the challenges overcoming at
me. Because I know its not the end of the world. And as Bro would say,
better than nothing. Allah wants to test me, real bad this time. And
I’m going through it. I’m not gonna sit down, and do nothing and wept
like hell, when I noe I can and still have to eat up 5 more papers.
They’re dead.

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have 5 more papers to frag, and I have 3 subjects to study today. Thank you. have a nice day.

Much Love, Azlil.Ash.