Tired.
Deep within a man’s heart, lies emotions that he noes he has to sustain. He noes deep within, he should not, ever, let his emotions go out. Be it in any way possible, he is a man, as cold as stone. Heartless, emotionless. that is what he must hold within.
He rarely, will let anyone noe what he has inside. He sumtimes releases it to his pals, the man around him. Because in this circle, is where he could really pour out. He can cry, and yet be understood of what he has to take inside. It is ok to let it out, but only to the right persons. Some, do it alone. Crying in the dark, where no one ever knew, and no one ever realizes. Outside, he is cheerful, happy, outgoing, friendly, compassionate, strong. All the capabilities of a man. But deep down in hiding, his heart lets all out, and his mind allows him to.
It is that sort of attitude that real men do have. The current generation men? they have been embracing their "feminine" side. they cry out aloud, they act as chivalrous, they become a bunch of whining men who are indeed a cumbersome. Annoying. They are the current generation men.
So where are the knight in shining armors? Where are the true males? They, are still there, untouched and unnoticed by how women want men to be more emotional, only to have what they want turn against themselves. Ever noticed, how men are stomped by women who are higher paying, higher status, better careers? Those are the toy boys, the males that get pick and kicked as they like, and in the end, these women dump them. their sexual lives are not fulfilled, they don’t get the man they desire. That is what happens to them.
Life has a balance to all of it. We males have our roles. Yet, in this generation, the males have truly, been different. Notice the gurls that are with guys. The real guys that gets chicks nowadays, are bad boys, because they are risk takers, they do more than what the average joe does. Why do rempits have chicks? Easy, because they put their lives on the line for excitement, and women find it thrilling. Trust me, there are some very good looking and great status’ed women with those kind of guys. And yet, what happened now? Guys don’t take numbers anymore in this country, the daring ones do, and they get them. Not just one night stands, but some even go a lot more than just that.
I’m tired of looking at myself in the mirror. People have been wanting me to change as how they want it, but i don’t see anyone who says, "You are who you are. I’m happy for that." I’m tired, and I just wanna lie down and listen. I don’t wanna do the talking, i just wanna do the thinking. Of life and the hereafter. I have much to catch up, i have much left behind to be successful off. So, i will smile, like i have always done recently, and keep on doing so until i want to scream and shout, as i desire. No one stopped me before, and they will never do so. I’ll be quiet now, and listen.
Much Love, Azlil.Ash.
