Fighter of A Million Dreams

In life, I have always said it is never hard, and never easy either. If u look at my prospect and how i deal with it, u might think i have a good life already. That’s what i believe.

I live in a small house in a family of 4. I love my family. But in that small house, there never really was an emphasis of what luxury could really mean to us all. Over the years that i have struggled with studies and life, i have always thought that simplicity is good to have and sufficient. Whats left is finding a way to ensure that u get access to Heaven.

But u noe, i’ve always been thinking of how hard life puts me on the spot. And it is really not easy at all for me to cope. If u know me, so far u’ve heard me pay for my video game consoles, my 1st Nokia handphone, and my partly paid for bike. To my friends, the one who’s nearest to me and known me from school, most would say i am rich because i have assets that are mine. In a bigger world, and especially at my age, I’m very much lacking behind.

Looking at the world itself, we have evolved that even the youngest of people may find a great idea, and make it so appreciative that it works and he or she earns. In a prospect of a young person, the money earned, is partly his or hers, and spent mostly on his or her own terms. Rarely, you would see that the young person, gives and contributes some of his money, to the family.

That’s the spot where i’m tight on. In my prospect, I dont have an allowance. You heard it right. But where do i get my stuff from? The money, i ask from my parents, are kept with me. Sometimes, I don’t eat expensively at school, and I skip breakfast, but not at home. So there’s the money that i basically asked for, and I don’t ask much.

In MMU, i don’t save, because the money i use is just enough for me to spend on. it basically covers what i eat, rent, bills. tats it, basic necessities. No more no less. Besides, its what i ask for. But nowadays, i’ve been asking a bit more, so that I can save on my own. And my mum, still helps me with summore.

And I’m grateful enough to have a scholarship. Its basically only a discount for my course, which at first i was really hoping to get it fully covered, so that i need not burden my parents. But, thats the hard part i had to take on.

I have the world on my shoulders. And yes, my world is on it. Its a big burden on me, but tats what life is setting out its course on. And at the right time, i must be careful of the opportunities i’m given. I cant just bank my money in. Any business would have its own risk.

Looking at the prospects of my future, i have to earn a lot to satisfy a lot of people. My parents have been taking my family to eat outside of home, and its cool, because we never really had that. I might see my family go on a vacation this year. And next year, i really plan and hope to get my family a new and at least bigger house. I’ve been scouting, and they seem interesting.

Along the road, besides the saving, i deserve some spending. So, in a years time, i believe things will change for the better. The only thing left for me is,

1. How to maintain my scholarship, because its the only ticket for me to come up higher than most graduates.
2. how to lift my families feeling of comfort. Its a small house, and we deserve bigger.
3. How to get a better life out of the hardest of work.

Beginning industrial training, i will be also starting on my project. I need to find ways to work hard and smart, so that i may kill the final semester with ease. I need a break from studies, and do lots of reading and learning on life and things. I think its high time for me to learn how to buy a car, house and so on. And who’s to stop me? Just like any other individual, we are trying to make a better life, especially for our parents. This is my duty as a son, my responsibility as a future husband. And its also my responsibility, to be that servant of Allah. I’ll work hard and smart, and pray for the best. Amin.

Much love, Azlil.Ash.