Fighter of A Million Dreams

It is hard to deny that certain people are meant for certain things in their life. However they may choose in their courses of life shows how great they may be in this world and how low may they be. As for me, it’s another case of another whole lot of thing going on once more.

I have an inheritance, a legacy. A big one by the age of 20 years. My father’s business. It does not seem proper in anyway to give this to my sister, because she is to be wedded to another man. As for me, is it a choice? Or, is it a God given right to me? Just coming to the age of 21, I’m already given a whole lot of big choices and decisions to make. I shouldn’t even have to say I guess it’s time for me to grow up. There never was a defining age for it. It could just happen to you at any time it wants to in that certain branch of life.

20 years have passed and my father have worked to bring up our family. The quirky thing here is, is it tiring? It doesn’t seem so. I never actually asked him why is it that he wants to do this. Why is it that he gave up his position as a bank manager in a bank and ended up as a hawker. Perhaps through my industrial training, I’ve already understood. Through the numbers of meetings that I went through, i have understood. Through the paperwork, the stacks, the printings, the applications and the programs I’ve gone through, I have understood it well enough. This isn’t stressful, this isn’t a dead end job, this is slavery.

Most of the people in this world don’t realize that they are given choices to choose from. Yet, they choose to remain where they are. Certain people choose to live a much happier life than they were before, preventing hair loss to begin with. Others lead punishing lives. It Isn’t to say stressful, yet it is something for us to call as slavery to life. Not to God. Certain people find comfort doing certain things, so do I. I’ve found my comfort zone when I was growing up.

There were few people who knew me as my father’s helper. During the Ramadhan month, I used to help him a lot with the business. From helping out with the Soy Milk, to packing and readying syrup packs, it is only now that these memories become more clear to me, like the back of my hand. When i was still single, you couldn’t imagine how I flirted, in a business manner, with the ladies. I was young and lonely in the past, of course I had to pull in some moves. But from there, I actually learned hospitality, and providing a service to the masses. Not only am I able to smile at my father’s customers, I can be happy with them, joke with them, and meet new people everyday. I know the times when my father did the Putu Perak, he also slipped in some conversations to make the wait feel like they never had to. he made them feel at home.

My gf told me, I was made for the business2 kind of thing. I do. I am. So, why did I go to get a degree then? Well, it was to be a bank manager. No kidding. And that, was thanks to my father who quitted his job. And he told me, that I shouldn’t be a bank manager, I should go higher than that. if bapak jadi pengurus, anak kena lah jadi pengarah. That was the quote the older people used to use. but along the way, I met with people. I met with people who aspired to be great, are great, or just following the American frat boy sort of life. I met with lecturers who couldn’t even do squat to redefine what they teach, and I met the best lecturer in my life that thought me some of the greatest lessons in my life. He liberated me from being who I am. And who I wanted to be. DIfferent.

I never had the opportunity of taking on some of the biggest choices in my life. Seems like right as the age is coming, I’m already given with these choices. What do you think I should do? What you have thought about? Most of us don’t have a choice, and most of us also have to start down low. For a person who is already given an opportunity to be high up, would you have passed it up?

Take your time, ponder it carefully. The best of life is yet to begin.

Much Love, Azlil.Ash

Is it a trend among youngsters nowadays? Holy crap, I just said that. I’m not old! I’m still an adolescent!

Ok on a serious note, it seems to me that kids , and some folks a little younger than my current age, seem to like to brag about something new in their lives. In the old days, it used to be money, cars, chicks, jewelry, that stuff. But now, sex is included.

Owh and don’t be mistaken either, its not just the men are bragging about this, the women are doing so too. Wait, scrap that. Due to their  "immaturity", I’ll refer them as boys and girls. The point here is, what’s there to brag?

If ur a muslim, u wud noe well enough that this matter is a serious. Sex before marriage could really land u in a whole lot of fire, from every part of the world and beyond. For other races, well, sexual gratification is in ur own mind and you have to discover it yourself why sex is still needed to be bragged. I even feel that at a certain extent, boys and girls could be shouting "Oy orang2 kampung! Aku baru jer main ngan pompuan/laki secara haram!"

Ah, the classic rendition of I got laid in malay. I wonder how does the language say it. So, what are we going to do? In bolehland, we blame porn. No kidding. Then peer pressure, then bla bla bla. The reality here is, what’s going on in the mind of that person? If the person was sane enough to think of the proceedings in life, sex wouldn’t have to be bragged about. Its intimate, a gift that God provided to all of us to share it with that special someone, and that means the partner that you wedded with.

It wouldn’t be awkward if a married couple announced to themselves that the other just got laid, cuz its intimacy. its a story that both partners can share and smile about. but the weird part is, it goes horribly wrong when u tell ur friends that. Including how detailed u did it. I remember in my religion that telling others about u having sex with ur husband or wife is already sinful enough. So, the question here still stands as why brag?

Is it because you did the impossible and defied God? Is it because you could be more popular now after knowing you’re not a virgin? Is it because you get money and respect out of the brag? Or just idle and small talk?

Whatever these small boys and girls do, well, they had better find a reason why fast. Immaturity is not ur excuse to say u did it, but rather ur lack of thinking and rationality brings this matter bigger. Those who’ve done it have probably lost the single one chance to see for urself how intimate one night would’ve been, when you both don’t know how it felt to be together for the first time on that very first night.

Put ur thinking caps on people.

Much Love, Azlil.Ash